I am back y'all and I'm in full swing! My professors have had me running like a chicken with my head cut off in the last month but this post was too important to put off. Enjoy!
I am sorry if this sounds like a rant, and I'm sorry that I lied about being sorry. I will never understand why people constantly tell single people like me that 'your standards are too high', or that 'You are not giving enough people the chance.' I understand that my standards are high, but I will not ask for forgiveness for believing that not just any person is right for me. I do not ask for the supernatural, or the far-fetched. None of my standards are based on physical attractiveness. I am not sorry for turning my cheek to those who lie, cheat, disrespect, etc.
I am protecting my heart and my belief in true love and I will not be sorry for that. If anything, I feel sorry for the people who fear loneliness so much, that they fall into a relationship with unhealthy qualities and unclear intentions. Do not get me wrong, I understand what they are coming from. It is very hard to find you other half, but when those people settle instead, they are only finding a fraction of the half that the deserve. I am bad at math, but I am pretty sure on my calculations on that one.
I will not settle for a person who does not go above and beyond to impress my family. I could not find it in my heart to make space for a manipulative liar to burn their fingerprints on. The second that he disrespects my friends or myself, I will leave with no regrets. If one day I feel unappreciated, it will be the last day he ever gets the chance to. It all comes down to loving yourself. If you can not do this, you are not ready for love. If you can not put your feelings first and say 'no' to anything that might hurt them, you will not find a worthy partner.
So maybe I have been the single girl my whole life... I will gladly be the single girl for years to come, because I know it will be worth the wait. To me, it is silly to fill my time with empty relationships. I mean come on y'all...despite what most people in my age group think, dating is useless if you do not see yourself marrying them.
Here is the most unapologetic letter I can give to you. I am not sorry and I will never be sorry. I have a kind heart and I can be understanding, but those things about me would not be true if I let bad relationships and trust issues that follow corrupt them.
So the next time you tell me that I have high standards, I will thank you and walk away while I say a quick prayer that one day, you will love yourself enough to do the same.
Sincerely,
Sidney
